I was terrified the whole time they had you and I didn't know where you were. I was scared out of my mind that I would never see you again or get to hold you. And when I did see you? I was afraid I'd never hear you laugh again or see your beautiful smile. So, yeah, I lied. I was terrified. I'm still lying. Daemon.. I'm scared shitless that I'll never be able to make this up to you. That I'll never be able to give you back your life –
The speaker expresses deep fear and anxiety regarding the safety and well-being of someone they care for, highlighting the terror of uncertainty while the person was missing. They reveal the emotional turmoil of imagining a future without seeing or holding this person again, emphasizing how that fear lingers even after reuniting.
Moreover, the speaker admits to feeling overwhelmed by guilt and the inability to rectify past wrongs, which amplifies their fear of inadequacy. The mention of a promise to restore the other person's life reflects their deep desire to make amends, indicating a complex emotional state filled with love, regret, and apprehension.
