I write all this with respect for the possibility that rather than some kind...

I write all this with respect for the
possibility that rather than some kind of
contact with the consciousness of my donor's
heart, these are merely hallucinations from
the medications or my own projections. I know
this is a very slippery slope….
What came to me in the first contact….was the
horror of dying. The utter suddenness, shock,
and surprise of it all….The feeling of being
ripped off and the dread of dying before your
time….This and two other incidents are by far
the most terrifying experiences I have ever
had….
What came to me on the second occasion was my
donor's experience of having his heart being
cut out of his chest and transplanted. There
was a profound sense of violation by a
mysterious, omnipotent outside force….
…The third episode was quite different than
the previous two. This time the consciousness
of my donor's heart was in the present
tense….He was struggling to figure out where
he was, even what he was….It was as if none of
your senses worked….An extremely frightening
awareness of total dislocation….As if you are
reaching with your hands to grasp
something…but every time you reach forward
your fingers end up only clutching thin air.