It might be useful, she reminds herself, not to panic here. She imagines herself solidifying into not exactly a pillar of salt, something between that and a commemorative statue, iron and gaunt, of all the women in New York who used to annoy her standing by the curbsides "hailing a taxi," though no taxis might be visible for ten miles in any direction-nevertheless holding their hand out toward the empty street and the oncoming traffic that isn't there, not beseechingly but in a strangely entitled way, a secret gesture that will trigger an all-cabbie alert, "Bitch standing at corner with hand up in air! Go! Go!" Yet here, turning into some version of herself she doesn't recognize, without deliberation she watches her own hand drift out into the wind off the river, and tries from the absence of hope, the failure of redemption, to summon a magical escape. Maybe what she saw in those women wasn't entitlement, maybe all it is really is an act of faith. Which in New York even stepping out onto the street is, technically.
( Thomas Pynchon )
[ Bleeding Edge ]
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