In the story, the character experiences a profound sadness that seems to stem from her reflections on life and relationships. After spending time in a state of inebriation, she begins to contemplate the nature of her sorrows, labeling them as "pre-cital," suggesting they arise from unrealized potential or unfulfilled desires. This introspection leads her to realize that much of life feels like a waiting game, filled with frustration and longing.
Her current feelings of melancholy seem heightened, particularly due to the anticipation of intimacy that looms closer. This tension between desire and emotional vulnerability highlights her inner conflict, as she grapples with the complexities of love and connection while coping with her deep-seated sadness.