The protagonist grapples with the complexities of love, recognizing it as an emotion that often eludes control. Her desire for stability and certainty conflicts with the unpredictable nature of love, leading her to a sense of solitude. She reflects on her past experiences of love, which brought both joy and heartache, highlighting the duality of such intense feelings.

Having experienced the highs of being in love and the lows of its inevitable challenges, she understands the risks that come with vulnerability. This awareness shapes her need for control in her life, driving her to seek a balance between the exhilarating joys of love and the potential for painful disappointment.