Alone because love wasone of those feelings that you could never have control of. And she neededto be in control. She had loved before, had been loved, had tasted what it wasto dream, and had felt what it was to dance on air. She had also learned whatit was to cruelly land back on the earth with a thud.
The protagonist grapples with the complexities of love, recognizing it as an emotion that often eludes control. Her desire for stability and certainty conflicts with the unpredictable nature of love, leading her to a sense of solitude. She reflects on her past experiences of love, which brought both joy and heartache, highlighting the duality of such intense feelings.
Having experienced the highs of being in love and the lows of its inevitable challenges, she understands the risks that come with vulnerability. This awareness shapes her need for control in her life, driving her to seek a balance between the exhilarating joys of love and the potential for painful disappointment.
