At the thought of him, knots twisted in my stomach, a mixture of lingering hurt, the vapid bite of confusion...and guilt. My hands curled helplessly in my lap. I hated feeling that way--hated that I was still affected by Roth and that I could feel fault in any of this. He was the one who'd pushed me away...pushed me right into the arms of Zayne,Which were very nice arms, I thought, staring at his biceps.I felt like a total creeper.
The character experiences a complex mix of emotions when thinking about Roth, including hurt, confusion, and guilt. Despite Roth's actions that distanced him from her, she still feels a strong emotional impact, leading to self-doubt about her feelings. This turmoil leads to frustration over her vulnerability and attachment to someone who has caused her pain.
In contrast, she finds herself drawn to Zayne, appreciating his presence and physical attributes as a comforting alternative. However, her admiration for Zayne is accompanied by feelings of guilt and a sense of intrusion, as she grapples with her past connections. This internal conflict highlights her struggle to reconcile her feelings for both men as she navigates her heartache.
