Because he had been sleepwalking, Clark realized, moving half-asleep through the motions of his life for a while now, years; not specifically unhappy, but when had he last found real joy in his work? When was the last time he'd been truly moved by anything? When had he last felt awe or inspiration? He wished he could somehow go
Clark reflects on his life and realizes he has been sleepwalking through it, merely going through the motions for years. He acknowledges that although he hasn't been unhappy, he has lost touch with the joy and inspiration that once fueled his work and life experiences. This lack of fulfillment prompts him to question when he last felt truly alive or moved by something meaningful.
His longing for a deeper connection to life highlights the human need for awe and inspiration. Clark's self-awareness underscores a common struggle, where routine can dull one's appreciation for life's beauty and purpose. Through this introspection, he yearns for a way to reignite that spark and rediscover what it means to live fully.
