But I cannot love her as I did, because she is not open, because she withholds what matters, because she makes me, with her pride or her madness, live a lie.
The speaker reflects on a deep emotional connection that has deteriorated over time. Initially, there was a profound love, but as the relationship progressed, significant barriers emerged. The subject of affection is now perceived as closed off, not revealing essential truths that once facilitated intimacy.
This transformation has caused the speaker to feel trapped in a deceptive existence, fueled by the other person's pride and erratic behavior. The love that was once vibrant has become strained and complicated, leading to a sense of disillusionment and heartache in navigating their relationship.
