But secluding my experience during that early period was both cowardly and wise. Some things are too fragile, too vulnerable to bring into the public eye. Tender things with tiny roots tend to wither in the glare of public scrutiny. By holding my awakening within, I contained the energy of it, and it fed me the way blood feeds muscle. It fed me a certain propelling energy, and I kept moving forward.
In her book "The Dance of the Dissident Daughter," Sue Monk Kidd reflects on her experiences during a delicate phase of her life. She acknowledges that choosing to keep her feelings and growth to herself was a blend of fear and wisdom. By not exposing her vulnerable moments to the outside world, she was able to nurture them quietly. This decision allowed her to protect the fragile aspects of her awakening, preventing them from being harmed by external opinions and scrutiny.
Kidd describes how this internalization provided her with a vital source of strength. By containing her awakening, she harnessed its energy, which sustained her in a similar way that blood nourishes muscle. This internal fuel propelled her forward, enabling her to continue her journey of self-discovery and growth without the distractions or potential damage that public exposure could bring.
