The narrator reflects on a formative period in their life, having lost their mother at a young age. This emotional void led them to believe that God had taken her away, creating a sense of abandonment and resentment towards the divine figure. Their childhood perception was deeply influenced by the idea that God prioritized their mother over them, a notion that fostered a lasting bitterness.

In the book "Bonecrack" by Dick Francis, the narrator’s struggle with their relationship with God highlights themes of loss and the quest for understanding in the face of tragedy. The painful realization that someone they were taught to revere could also be a source of pain complicates their view of faith and belonging in the world without their mother.