I know that things are still uncertain; I know that reality hasn't gone away. There'll be explanations and recriminations and messiness. But right now I'm entwined with a man I think I might love. And I haven't married the man I know I don't love. And from where I'm looking that's pretty good going, for now. At
The narrator expresses a sense of confusion and uncertainty about her current situation. While acknowledging that there will be complications and difficult conversations ahead, she finds herself in a budding relationship with a man she believes she may love. This emotional entanglement brings her some comfort, even amidst the chaos of her life.
Despite her awareness of the reality of her circumstances, she feels a fleeting sense of optimism. She contrasts her feelings for this new man with her lack of love for her fiancé, deeming her current experiences as a positive step forward, at least for the moment. The internal conflict she faces highlights a blend of hope and turmoil in her life choices.
