I'm suddenly seeing the other side of me; the side I thought had disappeared forever. All this time, all my stuff was here. Suddenly I have a memory of Eric's words, that first time I asked him about Jon. 'You'd trust Jon with your life.' Maybe that's what I did. Trusted him with my life.
The character reflects on a profound realization about herself that she believed had vanished. She describes a moment of clarity where she acknowledges the aspects of her identity that she thought were lost, realizing they have always been with her. This awakening is tied to her memories and experiences, particularly her relationship with Jon, which she now sees in a different light.
This newfound perspective leads her to recall Eric's words about her trust in Jon, suggesting that her bond with him was deep and significant. The idea of trusting someone with one's life emphasizes the weight of their relationship and hints at the complexities of love and friendship she is beginning to understand anew.
