In the book "Apollyon" by Jennifer L. Armentrout, the protagonist reflects on the painful memories associated with past conflicts, particularly a confrontation with Aiden. The intensity of these recollections overwhelms her, leading to a desire to erase the hurtful words and emotions that resurface in her mind. She feels trapped by these memories, which make her wish for an extreme means of cleansing herself of the negativity they bring.

This struggle highlights the deep emotional impact of her experiences, showing how past fights can haunt a person long after the moment has passed. The phrase "scrub my brain" emphasizes her desperation for a fresh start, not just mentally, but also in terms of her spirit and voice. The narrative conveys a sense of inner turmoil and the challenge of moving on from difficult interactions with those we care about.