In this excerpt from "Voyager" by Diana Gabaldon, the narrator expresses a deep sense of disbelief regarding Jamie's actions. Initially, they are convinced of Jamie's innocence and are ready to defend him, believing that he couldn't have done something unthinkable. This strong conviction is shaken by a recent event that contradicts their previous assumptions.

The narrator struggles to come to terms with what they witnessed, experiencing a mix of shock and confusion. Despite their attempts to dismiss the thought, the impossibility of the situation looms over them, leading to an emotional turmoil that underscores the complexities of trust and perception in relationships.