It was hard to imagine him in love. I knew that he and my mother must have once felt passion, since that was what love entailed, but I was grateful that over time the madness had evolved into something more like friendship or a business partnership, something I myself could be an integral part of. Even seeing my father recollect passion was disconcerting.
The protagonist reflects on their father's relationship with the protagonist's mother, acknowledging that while they must have once experienced romantic feelings, those have since transformed into a more subdued connection resembling friendship. This change is welcomed as it allows the protagonist to feel more integrated into their family's dynamic, rather than being overshadowed by remnants of passionate love.
The protagonist finds it unsettling to envision their father in love, as it contrasts sharply with their current view of their parents' relationship. The idea of their father recalling past passion evokes discomfort, highlighting a shift from what love once was to a stable, familiar companionship that the protagonist appreciates.
