The speaker admits that they no longer feel love for Max, but they are hesitant to show their current, damaged state to someone else. They want to wait until they are in a better place emotionally so they can genuinely give and share something meaningful.
They acknowledge their own limitations at the moment, recognizing they do not have much to offer right now. The speaker desires to be fully present and capable of giving something valuable in a relationship, rather than sharing a broken or empty version of themselves.