The protagonist struggles with a profound sense of inadequacy and a perceived lack of understanding about love. This feeling of being "damaged" stems from her ignorance regarding the depths and complexities of love, which she likens to being influenced by a powerful, mythical force. She yearns for a connection that transcends her current experiences, highlighting her desire for a more profound emotional existence.

Her struggle illustrates a broader theme of yearning for authenticity and intimacy. The imagery of boundaries being blurred and the self being fully exposed underscores her longing for a transformative experience. Yet, this yearning is complicated by her inability to fully grasp the essence of love, leaving her with a sense of emptiness and longing for something she cannot quite define.