She reminded me of what it did to her when I left - what it still does to her when I leave. She feels horrible about bringing that up, but she's right. I'll never be able to make up for that, but I'll never stop trying anyway.
The character reflects on the emotional impact of their departure on someone close to them, acknowledging the lasting pain it causes. Despite feeling guilty for bringing it up, the honesty about the hurt they cause is crucial to understanding their relationship. This realization highlights the complex dynamics of love and separation.
Even though they understand that they can never fully atone for the pain caused by their absence, the character is determined to keep trying. This commitment to mend the emotional wounds suggests a deep sense of responsibility and care, underscoring the struggle between personal choices and their effects on loved ones.