She will speculate that she didn't fully know her husband-this will give her leverage to seek him, to come to know him. It will keep her husband "alive" in her memory-elusive, teasing.
In "A Widow's Story," Joyce Carol Oates explores the complex emotions a widow experiences after the loss of her husband. She reflects on how uncertainty about her husband's true self creates a sense of longing and curiosity. This ambiguity gives her a reason to pursue a deeper understanding of him, suggesting that she might not have fully grasped his essence during their life together.
This speculation about not knowing her husband completely allows her to preserve his memory in a vibrant way. He becomes a figure in her mind that is both elusive and teasing, keeping his presence alive even after his passing. This dynamic illustrates how grief can transform relationships, maintaining a connection through the memories and mysteries that remain.
