Sometimes, after counseling sessions, I desperately wanted to buy vodka, lots of it, take it home and drink it down, but in the end I never did. I couldn't, for lots of reasons, one of which was that if I wasn't fit to, then who would feed Glen? She isn't able to take care of herself. She needs me. It isn't annoying, her need-it isn't a burden. It's a privilege. I'm responsible. I chose to put myself in a situation where I'm responsible. Wanting to look after her, a small, dependent, vulnerable creature, is innate, and I don't even have to think about it. It's like breathing. For some people.
In the book "Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine" by Gail Honeyman, the protagonist reflects on her struggles with the temptation to escape her responsibilities through alcohol. Despite the overwhelming urge to buy vodka after counseling sessions, she ultimately resists due to her obligation to care for Glen, a vulnerable individual who depends on her. This inner conflict highlights the depth of her dedication and the innate need she feels to nurture someone else.
The narrator expresses that taking care of Glen is not burdensome; instead, it is a privilege that comes with the role she has chosen. This responsibility feels natural to her, akin to breathing, underscoring the strong instinct to protect and care for those who are unable to care for themselves. The quote reveals her commitment to facing her challenges rather than giving in to self-destructive impulses, showcasing a profound sense of purpose in her life.
