The next time she visits her father she'll speak to him in English. Were her mother ever to stand before her, even if Bela could choose any language on earth in which to speak, she would have nothing to say. But no, that's not true. She remains in constant communication with her. Everything in Bela's life has been a reaction. I am who I am, she would say, I live as I do because of you.
Bela plans to speak to her father in English during her next visit, highlighting a shift in her relationship. In contrast, she feels she has nothing to say to her mother, despite the choice of language. This reflects a deep emotional disconnect, illustrating the challenges in their bond.
Despite outward appearances, Bela realizes that her life has been a continuous response to her mother’s influence. She acknowledges that her identity and choices are intertwined with her mother's presence, even when they are apart, revealing the complexities of familial relationships.
