Then why haven't you killed yourself? {Astrid}Why should I? The only enjoyment I have in my life is knowing I piss off everyone around me. If I were dead, it would make them all happy. God forbid I should ever do that. {Zarek}
Astrid and Zarek share a poignant conversation about the value of life in the midst of their struggles. Astrid questions Zarek directly about his reasons for living, implying a sense of hopelessness often associated with depression. Zarek's response highlights a rebellious spirit; he finds a twisted sense of satisfaction in the discomfort he causes others. This reflects a deeper inner turmoil where his existence is tied to defiance against those who wish him to be unhappy or even gone.
This exchange touches on complex themes of suffering, emotional pain, and the desire for agency in one’s own life. Zarek's refusal to end his life stems from a desire not to grant others the satisfaction of his demise, revealing his resilience despite feeling trapped by negative circumstances. Their dialogue underscores the struggle between pain and purpose, emphasizing that even in despair, there can be a motive to persist.
