There are thoughts of freedom and imminent escape. I could throw away almost everything, she thinks, and begin all over again. Station Eleven will be my constant.
In this excerpt from "Station Eleven" by Emily St. John Mandel, the character reflects on the liberating idea of freedom and the possibility of starting anew. This desire to abandon her current life indicates a longing for change and a fresh start, highlighting her emotional turmoil and the overwhelming nature of her circumstances.
The phrase "Station Eleven will be my constant" suggests that despite her yearning for escape, there is something in her past that grounds her. This constant represents a connection to the familiar, serving as a reminder of what she values amidst the chaos, emphasizing the balance between seeking freedom and holding on to essential memories.
