"This is nothing of medical interest - a small chill. Diseases are not interested in those who want to die." This quote suggests that minor health issues are insignificant in the grand scheme of things, and that more serious health problems usually affect those who are truly vulnerable or despairing. It highlights a sense of resilience or detachment from minor illnesses, emphasizing that true suffering or illness is often more complex than superficial symptoms.
Then, with a sudden shift in thought, she reflects on her own strength by asking, "Oh! Nessim, I have always been so strong. Has it prevented me from being truly loved?" This indicates a deeper longing for connection and recognition that might be hindered by her perceived resilience. The contrast between her physical health and emotional needs underscores an internal tension between strength and vulnerability.