What, I wondered, was the point of me? I contributed nothing to the world, absolutely nothing, and I took nothing from it either. When I ceased to exist, it would make no material difference to anyone. Most people's absence from the world would be felt on a personal level by at least a handful of people. I, however, had no one. I do not light up a room when I walk into it. No one longs to see me or to hear my voice.
The protagonist reflects on her existence with a deep sense of loneliness and insignificance. She questions her role in the world, believing that she offers nothing of value and takes nothing in return. This introspection reveals a painful truth: her absence wouldn't impact anyone's life in a meaningful way, distinguishing her situation from that of others who are missed by friends and family.
This passage captures the essence of her isolation. Eleanor feels as if she doesn't bring joy or connection to those around her, emphasizing her deep-seated feelings of being overlooked and unwanted. Her struggle highlights the themes of loneliness and the desire for connection that permeate the story.
