When feeling came back, in a storm of color and force and sensation, the most you could do was hold on to the person beside you and hope you could weather it. Alex closed her eyes and expected the worst-but it wasn't a bad thing; it was just a different thing. A messier one, more complicated one. She hesitated, and then she kissed Patrick back, willing to concede that you might have to lose control before you could find what you'd been missing.
In the midst of overwhelming emotions and sensations, Alex discovers the importance of connection with another person during tumultuous times. As she braces herself for the intensity of these feelings, she realizes that they are not necessarily negative but rather a complex and chaotic experience that could lead to growth. Her willingness to embrace this uncertainty signifies her readiness to explore deeper feelings she has been avoiding.
When Alex decides to kiss Patrick, it symbolizes her acceptance that losing control is sometimes necessary to uncover what is truly lacking in her life. This moment marks a pivotal shift for her, highlighting that vulnerability can lead to newfound understanding and intimacy. It illustrates the theme that embracing the messy parts of life can ultimately bring clarity and fulfillment.
