As a Christian, she had felt that she belonged. After leaving the church, she had been infinitely free, but even without stopping in a universe without purpose.
In Philip Pullman's "The Amber Spyglass," the character experiences a profound sense of belonging while being part of the church as a Christian. This sense of community provided her with a framework and purpose in her life, offering a sense of stability and connection.
However, after leaving the church, she discovers a newfound freedom that is liberating yet disorienting. This freedom, while valuable, also leaves her feeling lost in a vast universe devoid of meaning, highlighting the tension between belonging and individuality in her journey.
