As if to build a fence around the fatal emptiness inside her, she had to create a sunny person that she became. But if you peeled away the ornamental egos that she had built, there was only an abbys of nothingness and the intense thirst that came with it. Though she tried to forget it, the nothingness would visit her periodically - on a lonely rainy afternoon, or at dawn when she woke up from a nightmare. What she needed at such times was to be held by someone, anyone.
The character in the narrative feels a deep emptiness within herself, leading her to construct a cheerful persona as a defense mechanism. This facade serves to cover the profound void of emotions and desires she experiences. However, despite her efforts to maintain this sunny exterior, she cannot escape the haunting presence of her inner nothingness that reemerges during solitary moments, such as rainy afternoons or unsettling dawns.