The narrator expresses a profound sense of insecurity despite being reunited with his father. This feeling lingers deeply within him, suggesting an emotional unrest that he struggles to articulate. He feels as though his true father has vanished, leaving behind an impostor who merely resembles him, contributing to his inner turmoil.
This unsettling perception creates a chasm between the narrator and the paternal figure present in his life. The sense of something being amiss indicates that the bond with this father is not genuine, and the unresolved feelings hint at a deeper longing for connection and authenticity that remains unfulfilled.