But there's another part of me that knows no matter how Delia and I go forward from this point, it won't be the same. Because when she smiles, I will look away before it is contagious. When we sit beside each other, I will make sure that our shoulders do not brush. When we speak, there will be spaces between our words just the shape and size of that damn kiss.
The narrator reflects on the changes in their relationship with Delia after a significant event has altered their dynamics. Despite their desire to move forward together, the narrator acknowledges that things will never be the same. The intimacy they once shared has transformed into a cautious distance.
This distance manifests in small yet profound ways, such as avoiding direct eye contact when Delia smiles, ensuring their bodies do not touch, and leaving gaps in their conversations. These actions symbolize the emotional barriers that have emerged, indicating a longing for what was lost, juxtaposed with the current reality of their interactions.
