Despite our tiffs, despite her nastiness, despite all the fuss and faces she made, and the vulgarity, and the danger, and the horrible hopelessness of it all, I still dwelled deep in my elected paradise - a paradise whose skies were the color of hell-flames - but still a paradise.
The narrator reflects on a tumultuous relationship filled with conflict and negativity, characterized by harshness and danger. Despite the various challenges and emotional turmoil, he finds solace in this chaotic environment, recognizing an underlying beauty in what he refers to as his "elected paradise."
Even though the surroundings are described as fiery and tumultuous, the narrator clings to this sense of paradise, highlighting a complex emotional landscape where love and despair coexist. This duality demonstrates the power of subjective experience, revealing how one can find moments of beauty amid overwhelming darkness.
