In the narrative, the protagonist grapples with a deep sense of despair, realizing that despite his efforts, another person won’t respond or arrive. This feeling of futility looms over him, yet it contrasts with the happiness he derives from the act of waiting and caring for someone. His commitment to providing joy to another is seemingly unwavering, even under the weight of hopelessness.
As he contemplates this situation, he reflects on the essence of human connection, where even in despair, there is a semblance of fulfillment found in selflessness. The vivid imagery of the other person weeping, likened to an anvil, emphasizes both the weight of their sorrow and the protagonist's emotional investment in this relationship.