In the book "Already Dead" by Charlie Huston, the narrator expresses a desire to be more courageous and honest about his feelings for someone he cares about deeply. He envisions a future moment when he can confidently confess his love and desire for exclusivity, dreaming of a time when he can connect with her on a more profound level.

However, until he finds that bravery, their relationship remains in the realm of friendship. The narrator grapples with his internal struggles, realizing that love requires vulnerability and courage, which he has yet to muster. His yearning highlights the complexities of unspoken emotions and the hope for a deeper connection in the future.