The protagonist experienced a mix of joy and tranquility following a funeral, which felt unusual given the somber occasion. His emotions were influenced by the memory of his deceased friend, Charlie, and the reassurance that he had honored their bond by not failing him. This sense of fulfillment contrasted with the grief typically associated with loss, making it a unique moment for him.

Additionally, he realized he had the ability to impact the life of another important person, James Fraser. By deciding to keep James captive, he felt empowered, as it represented a chance to take an active role in shaping the future, highlighting the theme of agency amid sorrow.