He held her gaze steady while he summarized her promises. She will honor me, protect me, obey me only when she believes I'm being reasonable-but I shouldn't hold out hope that that day will ever come-try to love me before she's an old woman, and I'd better get it straight in my mind that she will respect me until or unless I do something to prove I'm not worthy, and God save me then. Have I left anything out, Brenna?
In the passage, the speaker reflects on a complex understanding of a woman's promises in a relationship. He acknowledges that her commitments to honor, protect, and obey him are conditional, reliant on her perception of his reasonableness. This uncertainty leads him to ponder the potential for love and respect between them, suggesting that he might not receive these sentiments until she deems him worthy, which places a heavy burden on his sense of self-worth.
The speaker’s concerns underscore the difficulties of trust and expectation in their dynamic. He seems to resign himself to the fact that genuine affection may be elusive unless he meets her standards. The contemplation reveals an intricate balance of power and vulnerability, portraying a realistic glimpse of how promises can be fraught with conditions and the potential for disappointment in their relationship.
