The character's struggle is rooted in his lack of clear ambition or desire, which renders him feeling helpless. This absence of a specific goal leads to an internal conflict, as he finds himself persistently searching for something meaningful to long for. Without a defined desire, he feels lost and restless.

This torment is exacerbated by his vanity; his yearning for fulfillment is fueled by a desire to be significant and to achieve something noteworthy. The search for desire becomes not just a personal issue but a profound existential crisis that leaves him grappling with his identity and purpose.