He was thinking about Edith. She was constantly on the verge of canceling their marriage. She would only commission a few shows at a time, reluctantly, and if he had listened properly, she'd always been telling him that it would all end one day.
The protagonist finds himself preoccupied with thoughts of Edith, whose commitment to their marriage seems uncertain. Her frequent contemplation of canceling is a source of anxiety for him, as she only agrees to manage a limited number of shows for him. This reluctance points to deeper issues in their relationship.
As he reflects on their situation, he realizes that Edith has been subtly indicating that their union might not last forever. Her hints about the potential end of their partnership serve as a reminder of the fragility of their relationship, leaving him to grapple with his feelings of doubt and apprehension about their future together.
