The narrator reflects on their previous interactions with a woman, suggesting that they may have been too harsh or rude in the early encounters. They acknowledge their own inappropriate thoughts, revealing a complex mixture of feelings towards her.
This moment of introspection highlights not only the narrator's flaws but also a darker, impulsive side that borders on aggression. Despite contemplating drastic measures, there's an undertone of self-awareness and a hint of regret for how they behaved.