I can be a dickhead and I do it on purpose. I tend to bully people into doing what I want. And I let everything that had happened with Dawson amplify those…uh, personality traits. But-" He removed his finger, and his grin spread into a smile. "But you…you make me want to be different. That's why I didn't kill Blake. It's why I don't want you making those decisions or for you to be around me if I am choosing those things.
The character reflects on his own behavior, acknowledging that he often acts in a detrimental manner, intentionally pressuring others to comply with his wishes. He connects this bullying tendency to his past experiences, particularly involving someone named Dawson, which has exacerbated his negative traits. However, this self-awareness shines a light on a deeper change occurring within him.
He admits that another person, whom he values, inspires him to pursue a better version of himself. This realization is significant as it motivates him to refrain from harming others, such as Blake. His desire to protect the person he cares about leads him to reconsider his actions and their consequences, indicating a willingness to change for the sake of their relationship.
