The character is grappling with feelings of anger and betrayal after discovering that an actress portrayed her in a way she finds disrespectful. She expresses incredulity that such a person was chosen for the role, reflecting on how she wished she had confronted the actress while she was alive. The protagonist feels a need for some form of retaliation, indicating that the actress's portrayal has personally affected her sense of respect and dignity.

Moreover, the character reveals a sense of lingering frustration as she contemplates how long she'll hold onto these feelings. It’s unusual for her to have violent thoughts about a victim, which indicates the depth of her emotions regarding this situation. She has even taken to improving her physical skills, which underscores her intensity of feeling and the personal nature of the conflict stemming from the actress's portrayal of her life.