I had more positive views. Which made me feel that although I hadn't been taught to assimilate, a person perhaps assimilated without knowing it. I was doing it now. You did it alone, and not with other or for them. And assimilating possibly wasn't so hard and risky and didn't need to be permanent. This state of mind conferred another freedom on me and was like starting life over, or as I've already said, becoming someone else -- but someone who was not stalled but moving, which was the nature of things in the world. I could like it or hate it, but the world would change around me no matter how I felt.
The narrator reflects on their experience of personal growth and adaptation, realizing that assimilation can happen unintentionally. They recognize that despite being untrained in this process, they are navigating it successfully on their own. This newfound understanding suggests that assimilation does not have to be a daunting, permanent change but can offer the freedom to evolve and start anew.
This shift in perspective creates a sense of liberation, empowering the narrator to embrace change rather than resist it. They acknowledge the inevitability of life's progression, suggesting that one can either appreciate or resent the transformations around them, but the world will continue to evolve regardless of personal feelings. This realization signifies a meaningful step towards self-acceptance and engagement with the changing reality.