"I had never considered myself to be a dishonest person, hating the idea that I was capable of such mendacity and deceit, but the more I examined the architecture of my life, the more I realized how fraudulent were its foundations."
"The belief that I would spend the rest of my time on earth lying to people weighed heavily on me and at such times I gave serious consideration to taking my own life."
In this excerpt from The Heart's Invisible Furies by John Boyne, the narrator reflects on their own sense of integrity, initially denying being dishonest. However, introspection reveals a life built on deception, causing deep internal conflict. The awareness of a dishonest future leads to feelings of despair, to the point where contemplating suicide becomes a serious consideration.