The speaker shares a fascination with observing others in intense situations, whether it be accidents or conflicts. This voyeuristic tendency allows them to gather experiences and knowledge that they might not encounter in ordinary life. Engaging in these observations teaches them lessons that, despite being shocking or unsettling, shape their understanding of the world around them.

By maintaining an appearance of composure, the observer masks their discomfort and surprises, as they want to project an image of familiarity with these harsh realities. This coping mechanism shows a desire to seem knowledgeable about difficult topics, even as they continue to learn through the experiences they witness.