I'm destined to die a virgin.Maybe i should have gone off with him. Not to get high, but to...well...not die a virgin.
The character expresses a deep-seated fear and regret about their virginity, feeling that it's a curse that defines their fate. This longing is highlighted in their contemplation of a missed opportunity, where they consider the possibility of escaping their circumstances by being with someone, not for the sake of drugs, but for a more intimate connection.
This internal conflict underscores a desire for companionship and a deeper experience of life that...