I'm not trying to imply I can keep up this silent, isolated facade all the time.Sometimes the wall I've erected around me comes crumbling down. It doesn't happenvery often, but sometimes, before I even realize what's going on, there I am--naked anddefenseless and totally confused. At times like that I always feel an omen calling out tome, like a dark, omnipresent pool of water.~page 10
The speaker reflects on their struggle to maintain a facade of silence and isolation. While they often succeed in keeping up this barrier, there are moments when it unexpectedly falls apart, leaving them feeling vulnerable and bewildered. These instances are rare, but they have a profound impact, as the speaker finds themselves exposed and unsure of how to cope with such feelings.
During these vulnerable moments, the speaker senses an ominous presence, comparing it to a dark, endless pool of water. This imagery suggests a deep sense of foreboding or an emotional tumult that contrasts with their usual self-control. The passage highlights the tension between maintaining a protective outer shell and the inevitable, sometimes overwhelming, feelings of vulnerability that can arise unexpectedly.
