Ila expresses feelings of uncertainty about her future, unsure of her desires, identity, or where she belongs. She feels conflicted between her love for adventure and her preference for comfort and safety at home. This inner confusion highlights her search for clarity and purpose in her life.
I mean . . . I don't know. I don't know what I want to do, or who I want to be, or where I want to live. I don't know. I like reading about adventure, sure, but I also like doing it from the safety of home. But what is home, besides a quilt-covered bed? Where is it?