In this excerpt from Gene Wilder's "Kiss Me Like a Stranger," the narrator feels a mixture of fear and admiration during a tense moment in a restaurant. They are overwhelmed by the fear of being judged by onlookers, wishing for the scene to end quietly. This internal struggle is intertwined with a sense of pride for their mother, who displays remarkable bravery by expressing herself passionately, even when surrounded by an audience.
The narrator’s conflicting emotions reveal a deep appreciation for their mother's courage while simultaneously acknowledging the discomfort of being scrutinized in such an intimate moment. This duality highlights the complexities of family dynamics and the personal growth that can arise from witnessing vulnerability and strength in loved ones.