I resisted feminism in my late teens and my twenties because i worried that feminism wouldn't allow me to be the mess of a woman i knew myself to be. But then i began to learn more about feminism. i learnt to separate feminism from Feminism or Feminists or the idea of an Essential Feminism - one true feminism to dominate all of womankind.
The author shares her initial resistance to feminism during her late teens and twenties, fearing it would impose strict standards on her personal identity. She reflects on her worries that embracing feminism might limit her ability to express her true self, which she viewed as imperfect and complex.
However, as she delved deeper into feminist ideas, she discovered the distinction between feminism as a broader movement and the limitations imposed by specific ideologies and figures. This learning process helped her appreciate the diversity within feminism, recognizing it as an inclusive space rather than a monolith that requires conformity.