I was running away from dating for the sake of running because I had gotten all too used to being on my own and not having to deal with anyone else's crap, be it good crap or bad crap.
"I was running away from dating just to keep running," the author explains, highlighting her comfort in being alone and avoiding emotional interactions. She preferred the simplicity of her own company over the complexities that come with relationships.
Perkins reflects on how her independence made it easier to escape the challenges of dating, whether they were positive or negative. Her desire to avoid dealing with others' issues led her to stay distant from romantic pursuits for a time.