I will miss it so," she said beside him. "This hell of a place, I will miss it so much. This fat body, walking mud puddle, deceived by everything, this impossible, ruinous accident of a world, these people who would truly rather hurt one another than eat-oh, there is nothing, nothing, nothing I would not do to stay here ten minutes longer. Oh, I will leave claw marks, I will drag mountains and forests away under my fingernails when I am dragged off. Such a stupid way to feel. I will be all dirty from clutching at this stupid planet, and the gods will laugh at me.
The speaker expresses a deep emotional attachment to a place that they describe as hellish and flawed. Despite the challenges and negativity surrounding them, there is a profound sense of longing to remain in this imperfect world. They articulate a desire to cling to their experiences and surroundings, highlighting both the beauty and pain of life. This mixture of love and frustration reveals the complexity of their feelings, showing how strongly they wish to grasp every moment, even while recognizing the absurdity of it.
The speaker’s reflections illustrate a universal struggle between the desire to escape and the impulse to hold on, even in difficult circumstances. Their vivid imagery portrays a struggle against the inevitable, emphasizing the struggle to stay connected to life despite its hardships. The idea of leaving physical marks in the world signifies a deep yearning for permanence, even temporary. This internal conflict resonates through the notion of clinging desperately to existence and embracing all its flaws, revealing the paradox of human experience.
